assalaamualaikum;

wth sey. i pinch myself and try to zone out, attempting to make myself believe that this is all a dream. a nightmare. a LIE. this could not be happening! I'm speechless. Tears are stream down my face, resembling a waterfall. I cannot believe that they were lying to me all this while. actually, i can believe it but the fact that i fell for their stupid tricks? that is unlike me. how could I have been so gullible?!

i guess i've known it all along, deep down in my heart, but i keep pretending to myself that it is all just a sick, cruel joke. well, if it really is, it's damn cruel alright.

i just dont know what to say anymore.
im sorry if i bothered anyone's lives.
maybe it was just me who included myself.
nobody ever invited me.
fine la.
assalaamualaikum.