When The Music Starts To Play, and The Lyrics Just Dont Make Sense.
assalaamualaikum,
so yeah, it feels as though it has been centuries since i posted, let alone touch this laptop. no great amount of words can describe how i feel right now, to be reunited with my best ever friend.
( i sound like im referring to a person rather than this old thing. -.- )
so first things first, the main reason for this post. i wish to appologize to anyone that i've made popular in my blog. i have removed the post, thus may all this be referred to as a bad dream.
i would just like to say that what i wrote in that post came from the heart. it is just how i feel, i had no other way of expressing myself and it seemed that my blog was my best companion. i have let my heart out to my friends and i guess they've gotten tired of listening to my same rants everytime. i never intended to hurt anybody with my words.
GOD i sound like a poetry-writing emo. ( wait, i am. )
let me give a short recap of the past week. oh no wait, my brain refuses to work and recall the past week -.- *slams head against keyboard*
one thing though, happy 12th birthday syiqa.
so, i have a limited time with my best friend. one hour to spend with this old thing and i have yet to know what to do. an hour seems like a long period of time yet it can pass very quickly, depending on the activity being carried out. now, my activity? i'll let you know when i find out myself.
i oh so very much cant wait for our upcoming second destressor. the MOE dairy farm thing next week. I am so excited! i googled MOE Dairy Farm's images but unfortunately there wasnt much. albeit, there was some information which just increased my excitement. just now after my APEX lecture one of the mentors said that this destressor thing, there wont be ANY STUDYING AT ALL and all of us cheered. haha.
now, these following words are adapted from a certain book. just read. the first part is by the girl, the second part is by the guy.
in a soap bubble, lightly floating towards infinity. that is where i
would like to be, so i wouldn't be bound to hear a thing.
to lose my self into oblivion and to avoid regretting a fading past
that, with all my being, i'd like to be my present and my future. it would
almost be funny if it didnt hurt so much, dont you think?
if only, for the last time, i could lose myself in the warmth of your
embrace ...
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cold. so cold. my body and my heart shiver from the cold.
i would have never imagined i'd feel so much! i miss you and i cannot
tell you. worst of all, i cannot tell myself.
why, why shouldn't i feel these emotions?
solitude makes me feel a deaf pain that not even the things in my past
can soothe.
and whenever other feelings arise, like rage, i cannot find peace and i
ask myself why US, why THIS WAY, why NEVER again.
if only i could convince myself that i was reasonable. if only i could
silence the doubts that crowd my mind. if only, for one more time, i could lose
myself in the heaven of your eyes ...
so, yeah. sweet, right? try to understand the meanings behind those words. so soulful. so deep. so .. emo -.-
so i guess that's it, yeah? if i can get hold of my best friend again in the near future, you'll be hearing from me soon then. if not, well, just await my next chronicle.
till there then,
helohelo?
assalaamualaikum.
CURRENT MUSIC ADDICTIONS: Crush, What About Now, Over You, I Write Sins Not Tragedies, Maybe, Lost, Scream, Warmness On The Soul, Seize The Day, Bat Country.
